Curiosity
Yesterday was hard. I received my third ‘no’ after an extensive interview process. It is completely draining to go through so many interviews for any prospective employer. On top of that, these past 6 months battling the side effects of Covid-19 have brought me to extremely low points physically, mentally, and spiritually. I was unsure how my family was going to cover expenses. I was even unsure if I would walk without assistance again!
I’m not one to typically ask, “What will happen next?” And I didn’t. But it did take me a while to build up the courage to ask God, “What am I supposed to learn in this season of my life?” “What is the lesson?” I asked and I saw this word: Curiosity.
I began to see the word curious/curiosity quite a few times. I’ve seen it in my latest devotional, “100 Days of Believing Bigger” by Marshawn Daniels Evans, and in a post by another well-known author, Rachel Hollis. Then my kids brought home flyers for book fairs and there’s Curious George! So I’m thinking to myself, why is this word jumping out at me like these spiders around my home after it rains?
(Ugh….that’s for another day…but hubby is on it! LOL)
So what is curiosity?
Curiosity (n.) – a strong desire to know or learn something.
I think about all my encounters with this word and AHA! Could my questions about why I’m going through these trials be leading me to my triumphs? What I also didn’t realize initially is what was put in motion long before I was hospitalized.
My curiosity about what God is revealing to me is causing me to move away from patterns, people, places….even my current employer…that had me stagnant. I realize where I am is no longer serving people and myself in a fulfilling way. But why? Is it because I no longer have the desire to serve there? Is my time just up? YES.
Curiosity, as I embrace this concept, is actually a good thing. It’s not always something that leads you to trouble as we may associate with Curious George, but it is educational. How? It is a vehicle to mature our mindset, to grow, and seek opportunities to expand several areas in our life. God doesn’t want us to lack in anything, so I truly believe He’s using curiosity to move me…and you to our next destination.
I’m not going to lie. As I began writing I was still upset about the news of the interview. As I write this I feel joy and disappointment, but the joy of my future prevails!
Maybe curiosity- the desire to know or learn- is my way out of disappointment today. Maybe curiosity is a way to acknowledge God, to seek Him constantly, in our lives.
Psalm 90:12 says, “Teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom.”
What are you curious about? What is God showing you right now?
